Reason why i havent make a Diet Vlog Video

So today i wanna write about my Diet.If you follow my Channel on Youtube you know i am on a Diet.
I really need it but i am honest.Since the death of my Grandma end if May i stopped cooking healthy.
I mean i didnt ate just junk food and didnt was the bes Customer of Mc Donalds or something.
But i cooked how i liked without watching on the Calories.
I wasnt on the Scale since then.So my last update was i have lost in the first 5 weeks almost 8 kg .
But that is not what i wanted to talk about.What i wanted to talk about is WHY i want to loose weight?
Well,first of all i wanna say normally i am feeling fine.I dont have any problems with my Healthy.I know that because i had 2 weeks ago my check up at the Doctors and he checked my heart,my internal organs were all ok!The doctor said i am healthy as a young girl.So that was really astounding.
I always wonder why anyone want to loose weight?Of course there is the Health thing.But isnt there also a reason in society??Lets face it...Society is always into a good looking.Skinny humans.perfect looking humans.Its all about what you look like!There is almost no other way then when you want to integrated in the Society you have to have a flawless appearance!BUT WHY?I have a personality too..
Why do i have to look like all the other people arround me that i can be accepted??
I am saying that because today i had a experiences!We have been at the Hospital today because the fiance from my mum he has some geart problems.By the way he is skinny!!And we went to the cafeteria.
And there was a young girl sittng with her Grandpa i guess.And as we walked into that room she followed my and my kids all the way to our table.And then she had to look evertime behind her because she was sitting with the back to us just to look at us!Or at me.Not that just she was looking but that was no more looking that was Staring her grandpa or whatever he was began to starring at me too.ALL THE TIME!!
My Husband brought me a cafe Latte and really honest.I couldnt make a sip without beeing observed!!
That really sucked!!So what i did!!I went then after a good hour they looking at me and my family and asked them if they want a picture of me i have my Camera right by me then they can look at me all the time without bug me all the time!
And what did i get as an answer??Why i be so rude??I am rude??
HELLO??They were looking at us as if we were monkeys at the zoo??!!!And then telling me i am rude when i just want to have a answer why they just dont let me and my family alone and dont disturb us??
So my Sons are not Big or fat at all.Just I am and my Hubby!Ok i mean i can not forbid everyone to look at someone!But as i said looking and starring that 2 different shoes i think!
Its the same when there is someone who has only 1 leg instad 2!Or sitting in the Wheelchair.Or someone has a bigger nose then others??
So if you are interested in them then go to them and ask them about their storys..or just let them alone for heavens sake!!!
Or talking behind someone!!Is there not any other themes to talk about??
I mean there is so much drama going on in the world.Just to see Norway what happens there!!Is that not a Important theme to talk about??All the war whats going on in the world?Whats about that??Why do have people to talk about other people they just want to live their lives??
Or antoher quick example.Going to swim?Going to swim with your Kids when you have not that figure then others.Honest..i havent been with my Kids in the pool this summer yet.Why??Because if i do that i will embarrass my Kids.Oh look at your mami..she is fat...why is she so fat?Well babys..we eat all the time 24 hours!!That is my answer i would get them best.The last time i was swimming with my Kids was over 1 year ago.But i was wearing all the time my T shirt.And we sat really near by the water so i had not a lot way to go into the water and again out...after i was on my place immediately i put my Shirt on again!!
It is really not easy in the Society if you have more weight then others.
I cant even say how it is when you are skinny. Because i was always a bigger girl.Just when i met my first Boyfriend.I lost a lot of weight.But he was not the right for me and then i met my Hubby.And i got pregnant and that was my beginning beeing a Big girl.
But that another story!In this Blog i just wanted to talk about my experiences today!
Maybe i will do more often a Blog like this!Because i have so many things in my head left!

But i want to say!It does not mean that i give up my Diet!!It is not!!I still want to loose weight but i dont went on the scale lately!and still dont eat chocolate or sweet goodies!
So..that was it for today!I would love if you would write me some comments how you feel about all that stuff!
So have a good day or Night everone!!
Thanks for reading my text!
Hugs and Kisses Danni